He also detailed his troubled relationship with his father, who was unable to tell his son he loved him despite their relationship recovering to a degree prior to his death in 1998. The feature claims that Bruce’s father, Doug, often mistreated his son with “icy distance” or “tongue-lashing fury”.
‘You don’t know the illness’s parameters, ‘ he told the magazine. “Can I get sick enough to where I become a lot more like my father than I thought I might?”
Springsteen further reveals in his memoir the up-and-down nature of his depression, which can change from year to year.
“I was crushed between sixty and sixty-two, good for a year and out again from sixty-three to sixty-four”, the 66-year-old reveals just how the illness has impacted his life in recent years. “Not a good record”. He said he’s been medicated in the past and has been in therapy for more than 30 years.
“Patti will observe a freight train bearing down, loaded with nitroglycerin and running quickly out of track”. “She gets me to the doctors and says, ‘This man needs a pill.’” Though Patti told Vanity Fair that she wasn’t “completely comfortable with that part of the book”, she did admit that putting his struggles on paper would help Bruce cope with his depression.
Born To Run explains how Bruce’s father came from a family plagued with agoraphobia, hair-pulling disorders and aunts who “emitted inappropriate howling noises”.
In the book, Springsteen writes a story about how a few days before the birth his and Scialfa’s first child in 1990, his father drove 400 miles to Springsteen’s home in Los Angeles to pay him a visit. “Over beers, Doug said, “‘Bruce, you’ve been very good to us, ‘” Springsteen remembers. “And I wasn’t very good to you”.
“That was it”, the singer writes.
Springsteen claims that it was “all” he “needed”, “all that was necessary”.
Springsteen and his E Street Band continue The River tour tomorrow, September 7, at Philadelphia’s Citizens Bank Park.
The Boss also said he hopes to release a new album in 2017.
Springsteen called touring his “trustiest form of self-medication” (the statement was made “half in jest”, Vanity Fair notes) and mused about the lasting impact of his song, “Born to Run”, for which he named his book.